{"product_id":"gas-station-dick-pills-and-other-american-dreams-paperback-1","title":"Gas Station Dick Pills And Other American Dreams - Paperback","description":"\u003cdiv\u003e\u003cp style=\"text-align: right;\"\u003e\u003ca href=\"https:\/\/reportcopyrightinfringement.com\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"nofollow\"\u003e\u003cb\u003eReport copyright infringement\u003c\/b\u003e\u003c\/a\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\u003cp\u003eby \u003cb\u003eTerry Blade\u003c\/b\u003e (Author)\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eFor\u003c\/strong\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eThe Wanderers\u003c\/strong\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eThe Weirdos\u003c\/strong\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eAnd\u003c\/strong\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eThe Queers\u003c\/strong\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eWith All The Love I Can Muster\u003c\/strong\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eIt's easy to sell dreams to some people who have lived in desperation. And the dream-sellers themselves are often the ones who create those desperate conditions.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eWe learn to find whatever joy we can, where we can. In a merciless landscape, sometimes we make do with existence itself, or otherwise find solace in the midst of excruciating loneliness, and pain. \u003c\/strong\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eThis is my first larger collection of poetry, 76 pieces if I counted correctly. My earlier book \u003cem\u003eCall Me Earthling, \u003c\/em\u003ehelped me clear out the psychic space I needed in order to do this.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eGas Station Dick Pills And Other American Dreams\u003c\/strong\u003e is inspired by nearly two decades of wandering, and homelessness among the impending, and now ongoing, American apocalypse. Some works are also inspired by my earlier travels in the Middle East, and Europe.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eI exist because my grandparents got the fuck out. Each side of my family came from different places, different countries, but the results were the same. Those who stayed behind were murdered. The family that I knew was very small.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eWe should endeavor not to become the evil that we have survived.\u003c\/strong\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eIn America the pressure to fit in was (and is) overwhelming. I think of the carrot and the stick. Difference was brutally punished. On the other hand, comfort was not truly attainable for immigrants or their children.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eBeing a trans kid who was self-aware from a very young age was extremely painful and confusing. Again, no place of comfort in the world. The words and ideas used today did not exist back around 1960. I just went to school, lined up with the girls, and tried to tell people who I was. I learned extremely quickly not to do that.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eI could say the same about disability, and signs of homelessness. The more hidden, the more acceptable I become, but always at the expense of getting my own needs met.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eWhen the world tries to chew you up, and spits you out, but you are as stubborn, and tenacious as all hell, what do you become?\u003c\/strong\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n            \u003cdiv\u003e\n\u003cstrong\u003eNumber of Pages:\u003c\/strong\u003e 172\u003c\/div\u003e\n            \u003cdiv\u003e\n\u003cstrong\u003eDimensions:\u003c\/strong\u003e 0.47 x 10 x 7 IN\u003c\/div\u003e\n            \u003cdiv\u003e\n\u003cstrong\u003ePublication Date:\u003c\/strong\u003e July 02, 2025\u003c\/div\u003e\n            ","brand":"BooksCloud","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":45799345979589,"sku":"9781961461239","price":28.78,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0757\/6718\/5605\/files\/pSg1YcXM9l9781961461239_f195392e-c9cb-4c13-bdc5-d473df3fa285.webp?v=1770844221","url":"https:\/\/selloorium.com\/products\/gas-station-dick-pills-and-other-american-dreams-paperback-1","provider":"Selloorium","version":"1.0","type":"link"}